[Squeaky]

I can understand why people say family is important but like Big Vern says that's only the case when you have a good relation. My mother is a cow and she only thinks how much grief she has after a fight. She never thinks about the grief me and the rest of my family have, even when she is the cause of the misery. She is so selfish. My brother is the same I guess. He was a complete bastard and treated my parents like shit. He now blames me for being respectless towards them. He totally forgets what he has done in the past and that my mother is to blame.

Fuck it, all these fights have ruled my life. Talking to therapist has made me realize it's time to choose for myself and my own family. If that means I'm loosing my brothers but it gives me the peace I so badly need well then that is what it takes.

I got other things to worry about. I'm expecting a baby boy in four weeks, I will loose my jOb and get a new one in Amsterdam. My girlfriend has no job. My house is for sale and I still have to get married some day.

Thanks for all the support guys!